:) = :(

I hope I will not be so emo soon cause its just not the girl I am and not what I wanna be.. Alright, I will not think about anything else except work. Why bother about something or somebody who don't bother about you right? Come internal locus of control.. Let's see how strong you are :)

last night....

Today everyone have to stay overnight.. Edi and his friend drove to fetch me to my grandma place.. It was raining.. Quite heavily.. As if the sky is crying for our loss of our dear grandpa..

Reached there quite early in the morning.. Sit and talk with them till about noon..

Lunch, but no appetite..

Played pranks on my second uncle.. Chat with aunt and uncles..

Wait, sit, walk, chat, eat, go upstairs, come downstairs, go in go out, sms, on the phone till my cousins came..

Lend them my phone to play.. Teach them homework.. Then go up cause phone no battery.. Charge, play, sleep.

Present tense

Currently I felt like the building.. Going to be absorbed by the clouds (tiredness).. I'm looking for a way to relief my stress.. Too bad I now bankrupt.. If not, I can EAT. Haha.. Actually I added this picture here is due to the very obvious fact that my blog is full of words and more words.. So I'm trying to brighten up with a few pictures here and there.. Haha.

By the way.. This picture is taken by me :) It is taken on a black cloudy day when my mood is extremely bad.. This scene just fits perfectly back then.. Now maybe not that black.. Just a little overworked?

And I need to bake for my junior.. I miss band.. I miss my beloved euphonium.. I miss music.. I miss the time when I actually have the time to have fun.. I miss the old me.. Though I can't really remember.. Haha.. I miss my friends, those I never see for a very long time.. At least for a year.. I miss the times we all go crazy together.. I miss my classmates.. And I know we can never be the same again.. I miss my teachers.. They're great.. I miss my grandma, I always do.. But I can't see her anymore in this lifetime.. And I miss you, everyday every hour every minute every second.. I don't even know why, but I just do..

If only there's such thing as time machine.. Then I can travel back in time to undo all those things that went wrong.. Too bad there's ain't such thing.. If it exists, I guess nobody will actually cherish all those people around them.. I'm cherishing all the time I have now, cause life is really short.. And unpredictable.. Every second, someone passed away.. And more babies are born.. When will it be my turn, I don't know.. But at least now, whenever I can, I'm going to let the people who are important to me, know that how much they mean to me.. Then if anything happen, I mean IF, I have no regrets.. Cause they know what I wanna say..

I will try my best not to emo anymore.. Its really not part of my personality.. Just that lately, its really hard to smile.. Especially in school.. There's no reason for me to SMILE like (: Not even in that mood.. Back home, its pretty much the same.. Me, myself and I. Luckily, all these had become part of my daily routine so doesn't really make any difference.. But thank goodness, I still have one supporting pillar.. Or maybe two.. However, if these two pillars fall too.. I think that will be the end of me..

0.0

Today's mood was quite alright.. Thanks to a special someone (:

I'm feeling so much better already.. I'm just so tired that I couldn't think straight.. Sigh.

Anway, glad the worst is almost over.. Today was supposed to have my dining experience.. But they end up postponing it for no reason.. Almost thought today no need to eat the canteen food.. -.-" Tomorrow will be eating there.. Which is a good thing cause I really no money now.. I've used up my whole week allowance.. On taxi fare.. $21.20.. Plus today I eat alot for lunch.. -.-" But I still think the taxi fare is worth it.. Hehe :D

I'll finally update on the official blog entry after I completed my tasks for the commis challenge.. Luckily, typing is a very easy thing to do :)

what happen today

Today I went to popular.. Before that, I went to meet you-know-who. (Please don't scold me)

Anyway. I'm so much better now, so don't worry about me..

I'm tired of emo-ing, besides, I don't think I'm suitable for that.. :)

I'm going to do my onion homework now..
PS: Remember to wrap with plastic wrap! & put in the fridge

And which kind soul can help me print the second lecture of basic entre?
My printer is insane -.-" and I have tutorial tomorrow.. I'll be very grateful to you :)