XD

Haha. Just for your information, this blog now I supposed most of the things will be about my ♥ HAHA. My life just revolve around him :) My source of happiness.

Oh and this blog, all the links and headings are all from songs :DD One of the ways to personalised my blog :) None other than songs that descibe my feelings :)

These few days don't know why, but I feel extremely tired. Ever since the event on Sat. Oh wait. Have been feeling very tired wayyyyyy before that. Sun didn't managed to catch up much on sleep cause my relatives came to visit early in the morning. But I slept the afternoon away. And the night. Monday wake up at 1pm to eat and rest 1 hour to go back to sleep till 7plus at night. Eat then sleep again. Tues woke up late, had to rush to school. Prepare revision notes in school till late.. Discovered new yoghurt blend :D (YUMMMMMY!) Go home sleep. Today wake up 1pm! Till now.. Still super tired :/

Anyway.... Shall blog again soon! For the time being, its just my lovely bear and my bed and me!
Goodnight! :)

RECENTLY....

Updates updates..

1. Dentist trip. Cause: stupid coke. There's no way am I going to drink coke again. NEVER EVER.

2. Rlitz Carlton job: Most probably due to my IT show and F1, they decided not to hire.. Not sure still waiting..

3. F1 training still haven't call yet.. Late like the hotel~ thus date: unsure

4. IT show job. First time doing.. Seriously I have no idea at all what are those things and what they're used for until I go and work as this. Quite cool actually just that I have to know a whole chunk of stuff that I seriously have no clues about :( But not so bad since I have my team to help me with the things that I don't know (which is really alot).. HAHA. But after selling more, those common ones I can explain already..

I'll go into details soon.. Now I need to sleep.. Its the last day of the show~~ And I'm going to earn lots and lots of money.. So tired..

New songs to listen :)

Lovely songs that I have come across recently.. Might upload the lyrics?
If I have time.. :)

1. Manos Al Aire By Nelly Furtado
2. Need You Now By Lady Antebellum
3. Solo By Iyaz
4. Almost Love By Jessica Jarrell
5. Kissing You By Miranda Cosgrove
6. According To You By Orianthi
7. Cry By Kelly Clarkson
8. Gone By Kelly Clarkson
9. Come Clean By Hilary Duff
10. Over it By Katherine Mcphee

I'll add more plus lyrics next time :) Need rush to work now -__-

so outdated

Haven't update for like 1 month? There's nothing much to say about work since I have come to realise that its almost the same every single day.. Just some new updates about work..

1. One of my chef transferred to the club
2. I changed from the deep fryer station to the salad
3. New chef came.. From shatec, just one year older than me..
4. Kitchen finally become cleaner
5. We changed cleaner for more than 10times WOW
6. I have improved? I guess.. Maybe? I hope so..

I don't know what else to say about work.. I have see through it now.. As in, I have gotten used to the way things works. AND the way certain reaction you'll get if you do or say something..

Somehow they have the perception that school won't teach us such things like cooking, which is what I've been studying.. What school taught us, is the basic, and I know will definitely be different in the industry.. But doesn't mean that it's wrong. There are more than one way to do things. Its kinda obvious right? But here, you can't do your own way EVEN IF is better. They tell you not to learn what they're doing, however you have to do what they did. Which is confusing. Especially when everyone is doing different things and they expect you to do what they are doing as they believe they're right.

Hey, I'm not saying that you're wrong, but everyone have their own stand right? I can't follow blindly without knowing what I'm doing. But if ask too much I will received comments like you work here how long already still don't know? Sometimes I just don't want to make any mistakes and to prevent that I ask.. And that is what I got..

When everybody's in bad mood. Guess who gets it? The trainee of course! :( What to do? I'm just a trainee, I have no say.. That's why I got bullied also can't say anything. Not that it happens everyday.. But still.. That manager.. Sigh.

I realised people don't really like to take responsibility, whenever there's chance they'll push the blame to someone else.. Like me. Manager told me the other day that the customer complained about me.. Saying what he called me to call the service staff when in the first place he never even talk to me.

He waved. Yeah, I saw but I wasn't the service staff. ITS VERY VERY OBVIOUS SINCE I"M WEARING CHEF WHITE. Still, I turned my head, one head pouring drinks but facing guest. Manager walking towards him. The other staff taking orders but facing him as well. So there's THREE people looking at him right. So I continued to do my work as I was carrying alot of things at that time.

Oh, I was sent to collect things to do the mise en place by the way. But when I returned. 1. I got scolded for taking too many things saying the kitchen is too small but he say go take. 2. Manager say guest complain me. HOW GREAT?

Immediately my mood become very bad. I just keep quiet. I mean, you don't expect me to scream at them right? I tried to explain myself, but to them it's always either finding excuses or being rude. Kitchen can be noisy, with the machines working, water flowing, radio playing, people talking. Sometimes people can't hear what you talking so you speak louder. Aha. Once you become louder, they say you're being rude. Great.

My internal locus of control really need to be improved on.. Cause that day.. I was feeling very unhappy and with people keep saying and saying. I lost control of my tears.. Sigh. Embarrassed myself again. Too emotional.. :(

I tried my best, really to do well cause this is what I wanna do.. But. When your effort is not being appreciated, when they say you're forgetting what they taught when you didn't, when they say you're insulting your school cause you're so lousy in what you're doing, when you're being scolded for things that you didn't do, when you're just trying so badly to fit in and be happy.. And none of it goes exactly the way you planned it.. Its just depressing.. But you still have to smile and stuff everything else inside your small little heart hoping it won't burst..

That's why I am unhappy. Come to work happily, people give you black face all the way. Try to cheer them up, say jokes, they say you're not concentrating on your work. Concentrating on your work, they talk to you if your reply is not being heard, you're being rude. So you know what? My conclusion is, guys are weirder than girls. -.- Sigh. Just too complicated for me..

All these depressing stuff makes me wonder am I really suitable to be in this line.. So motivating not. I really like working here.. Just that its getting more and more demoralising.. Sad. Daph, please get used to these soon and be happy again..

Last day of the week~

FINALLY!! :D OFF DAY!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I forgot to type just now.. Hehe.

Today was quite bored cause not much customer..

WAS LEFT BEHIND WITH MR. A AND IS SO ANNOYED :( Cause of the things he do today again.

Anyway, when I reached at noon only 1 or 2 orders so I went to sliced capsicum for the patties and onions. Then lunch and stuff..

During lunch I had a conversation with a service staff then learnt quite a lot about the bar here.. And he was really nice and showed me the beverage menu.. There's KAHLUA AND TIA MARIA!! :DDDDD But a shot for $13.. Hmmm...

Really nothing much. Saw how Mr. A made pudding and making a mess of it. Which pudding is as hard and smell that tapioca cake?? Tomorrow others gonna have a shock.. They knew it was him doing since he INSISTED on doing yesterday. He wanted to do everything but he didn't ask how to do nor do it well.. And worst thing is he don't listen to the advice from others.. Which make him even more annoying plus he keep scolding vulgarities when things don't go his way -.-" What kind of person is he?

So he made the patty as well, I don't bother to comment on this cause its very !!! as well. I make the shape and wrap and keep. I was so bored in the afternoon that I cleaned the fridge :) But there's only a few so it was done quite quickly then I had nothing to do again. Then I chat with the dishwasher.. :P

Cooked Aglio Olio for dinner but then.. I forgot about the fire -.-" I only realised like when I wanted to serve.. No wonder no flambre when I add the wine -.-" So as expected, its not very nice.. I went to add the mushroom sauce instead but still taste awful :'(

Later the dishwasher microwave the food.. He eat halfway then short circuit! Stove, fryer, microwave etc all off. I thought it was me, luckily its not. But you know what, that Mr. A called the head chef and said it was after I used the stove like immediately short circuit make it seems like its my fault :( Sigh.

After we found out what appliance is the culprit, disconnect it then soon it was time to go home!

Oh, before another colleague left, he actually prepared a brownie on request by manager? for a boy to celebrate his birthday but they did not have chance to present it cause they left. SO much for trying to impress the customer.. Haha.

PIZZA DAY!

One more day to off :)

Today there's more orders than usual, like finally haha. But I didn't do much cause apparently I was too slow :( Oh well.. TODAY IS PIZZA DAY! Everybody order pizza.. So many orders.. -.-

Just did the regular stuff.. Only new things I did was, lamb stew, quesadilla (its super nice!), jazz burger plus the bread stuff.

Need to increase speed for slicing onions. Oh, I sautéed the onions too. Learnt about the fisherman basket..

According to the new email, we had to stick to the standardised recipe and presentation.. WHICH MEANS, I have to forget about the things I learnt this week! :( Sigh.

Tomorrow is pudding and mushroom sauce and patty and more!!! WHEE~!

My feet for some reason is very pain after work today.. Just saw the new schedule, I had to work morning and night shifts = opening and closing.. THANKS TO THAT MR.A from previous post. He is still very annoying, complaining today AGAIN and PUSHING BLAME AGAIN. Can't stand him.. Luckily he'll be transferring to some other place soon :) So is one of my mentor :(

4th day & im still clumsy

Mood: slightly better but still...........

ANYWAY, here's the 4th day..

Didn't do much cause of the training at CHIJMES. So I went to work as usual almost late thanks to that stupid sudden rain which made me missed my bus which made me missed the train. =.="

But I managed to reach 10mins before and scanned 3mins before.. PHEW. There wasn't much order.. Then I do the daily mise en place and marinate the fish, in the process freezing my hands.. Dots.

When the lunch hour end, one of the chef noticed a box, the pizza box with some writing on it. So we open and see.. Guess what? Inside is a pizza. And it is black. I'll tell the story later..

After the pizza thing, everyone got a shock. Then I cleaned the fridge and stuff had lunch and went to the training with another chef.. On the way, he told me the story.. Last night A (creator of the pizza) & B (the one telling) were on the night shift. B is more senior than A in term of position not age.. Anyway, so A left earlier than B cause his shift ended earlier.

10.05pm a pizza order came in. So A prepare and put it inside the oven and TOTALLY FORGOT about it. Even with the order slip staring right at his face. Needless to say, the pizza burnt. And there's burnt smell so the service staffS came to ask but he say nothing is cooking! And he didn't turn off the electricity and stuff then he went home.

Today he was confronted and the service staff and manager had taken picture as evidences but he refused to admit his mistake. He kept arguing. Its obvious that he's wrong, he keep claiming that he had already send the pizza. But the customer did not order and the customer was so angry that he complaint and refused to pay the bill. Naturally A had to pay since its his fault although he kept denying.

After the training, I went back to the restaurant to continue my shift. A came then another more senior chef told him that he should be more careful with the things he do, A used vulgarities and kept pushing the blame to other people. Like the service staff come in and do things which they can't cause they will be fined if they do so, he pushed to the dishwasher who don't know how to cook or operate the machine at all, more ridiculous is, he said our kitchen is haunted. What the hell?

So when I return work, spent quite a long time hearing the argument.. -.-" Now back to the training. Its about keeping the kitchen clean and same.. If you ask me, its the year 1 things.. Quite boring but I get to see friends from other outlets so ...

Learnt how to make tandoori wrap, quesadilla, jumbo and asian! :) Yeah!

I hope I will become better.. Very tired but I still enjoyed my work :)) Hopefully one day, my mentor chef won't say why I do things certain way.. Haha. I was told to train dumb bells! x.x

1st day of work

So I have not been updating cause I'm quite lazy.. Haha. But I'll try to write something throughout my whole intern so that I can remember, hopefully it'll last :)

Today is my first day of work. Woke up, get scolded by my mum about something -.-" and more things.. =.="

Then i pack my things and left house at 10am as planned. Missed bus -> missed train. Board train at 10.13am.. Reach raffles place at 10.32am rushed to work place.. Walked that irritating extremely long tunnel, went up the wrong escalator, had to asked for direction to my building.. -.-" This is not the first time I got lost finding it.. The other day I actually got lost 3 times before I found it.. =.="

Anyway, I still reached early.. Then I realised I don't need to bring my uniform cause they provide. Wear another person's uniform, it's really very very big. After that, I scanned my finger alot times but it didn't registered.. Oh well, had to write my name etc and pin it somewhere..

First thing, the chefs introduced themselves and I start work.. First task, go to walk in chiller and get some vegetables. In there, met another chef who helped me to get the stuff :D Then he tells me where to get certain things like where they are kept..

After that we all slacked for 1 hour plus till the crowd come.. We ate peanuts while waiting.. Haha. I realised my chef knew chef Joyce, what a small world! When the crowd come, there's quite a bit to do..

I'm in charge of the fryer today.. So I do the fish and chips, the fries, the wedges, wings and sausages and nachos. I also do the plating for the dishes. Then I make the hot sauce, sliced mushrooms, celery. Weight the spaghetti, prawns, make the chicken mayo, caesar salad, club sandwich, pizza.. Really did alot today..

My chef cooked seabass with some tomato sauce, it will very nice! The fries here also very good :) Maybe cause I fried hahahahah. The staff food was prepared by 2 chefs. Vegetables with prawns, and roast beef! Very tasty. Chef ask me how was it, I say very nice, he say I everything also nice.. Haha. Then he ask me to prepare staff food and asked if I only know how to cook maggi mee. Haha.

Anyway today was quite a good day.. :) Tomorrow till Saturday is 12 to 8pm.. hmmm. 8 hours.. Jia you!

2010

New year day.

If you asked me if the miracle happen? I don't know. But I do feel different now..

A little disappointed, but what to do? Its a new day. I'm not going to spoil my mood. Not that my mood is good to start with.. Feel so tired..

Not going to keep my mouth shut anymore..

something that I already know

A song by backstreetboys.. Currently addicted to it.. :D

Ta da! The lyrics ^^

Here we are, seven days

And seven nights of empty tries

It's ritual, habitual

But it's never gonna work this time

We're to the point of no return

And along the way the only thing we've learned

Is how to hurt each other

I'm looking back and wondering why

It took so long to realize

That nothing's changed, it never will

All these years of standing still

And still we stay in all this pain

And nothing's gonna make it go away

I don't wanna wait another minute

Put me out of my misery

I can read your mind baby you're not in it

And we're not what we used to be

No, you wouldn't have to lie to me

If you would only let me go

And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear

Something that I already know

I know, I know, I know

Something that I already know

I know, I know, I know

So save your voice

Don't waste your breath

Can't you see we're at the end

And this goodbye is permanent

So wish me well and try to forget

And all the fights

And all the ways

We almost made it

But we never did

And it's finally come to this

I don't wanna wait another minute

Put me out of my misery

I can read your mind baby you're not in it

And we're not what we used to be

No, you wouldn't have to lie to me

If you would only let me go

And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear

Something that I already know

We can not hide what we've become

So sick and tired of being numb

It's done, it's done

It's done

I don't wanna wait another minute

Put me out of my misery

I can read your mind baby you're not in it

And we're not what we used to be

No, you would't have to lie to me

If you would only let me go

And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear

Something that I already know

I know, I know, I know

Something that I already know

I know, I know, I know

Something that I already know

I know, I know, I know

I know, 'cause I know

GO LISTEN!!!

a for alone

In the end, I'm still here all by myself.

Alone. Only with me, myself and I and no one else..

Not even you are here..

I'm really tired of doing this and going through this again and again.. I'm just too naive to think that things will be different. I said it once twice thrice to myself and I knew it since what will happen next..

Never felt this cold.. That's not how I'm supposed to feel.. Not when I'm with you.. The coldness is what scares me.. Makes me feel like giving up..

moodswing

Weird weird weird. This is one of the things that I really don't understand.. Why do I feel like crying so easily these days? So emotional.. The tears just came out by itself.. I'm also feeling quite antisocial lately.. Strange. So not enjoying any of these..

Feeling so tired and stressed lately.. I wished I'm still having holidays.. SOBS. So not looking forward to school.. So much to do, so little time.. And I'm still in pain D: Why is this happening? Just don't get it.. And I probably won't..

Sigh.. I missed him so much :(

tired..........

Finally played badminton today :) Feel so great to sweat and run around.. Hehe. And of course, what makes it even better is whom I played with ^^

Tomorrow going expo for an event server.. I think my outfit is very weird.. =.= Guess I only left with the morning to do some changes.. For the time being, I'm going to play some games.. Quite bored..

complicated

How can anyone feel happiness and sadness at the same time?

Wanted to update just now but there's seriously something wrong with my computer.. Extremely lag. Same thing applies to my phone.. But I don't feel like servicing both things.. AHH. Cause I'll lose everything inside.. And I want to keep them.. But they kept giving me problems.. =.= They're forcing me to send them to "hospital"..

Holiday is officially here. Missing school already.. I'm gonna make good use of these months to get enough rest, and not to mention, earn money! I'm broke. Seriously. Not a penny to my name.. Luckily now I've quite a few job offers :) Thank you people! ^^

Going to work temporary for F1, tutor, waitress for swensens and maybe kbox? Then I hope i can set up a blogshop too :) So much to do, so little time.. More things to do is a good thing though, especially for now.. Take my mind off things.. I can hardly wait 0.0

I wanna join the NSEC & SJCC! :( Gonna come up with 2 dishes by monday.. SJCC.. I think its too late now D:

SO tired.. Working tomorrow.. 5hours.. After working 14hours yesterday, I'm just simply exhuausted.. I'M GOING TO SLEEP ^^

GOOD LUCK to all the people who are having exams :) JIAYOU (v^.^v)

lunch XD

Had a fantastic lunch today! Its Japanese meal :D

Today we're making Japanese food.. Since we're no long open for business, all the food go to our stomach!!!! XD I haven't felt so full since don't know when.. Hehe. Let me tell you what we eat :P

Miso soup, tuna sushi, soba, teriyaki salmon, chawan mushi! We also had free food from other kitchen.. Such as the vegetable pizza (with carrot, radish and some other veggie.. -.-), salmon, muddslide cookie, and more! 

The best part is we ended school at 1plus today! After so many months, its the first time class ended that early.. But the sad thing is.. I've to wait till 3pm to meet my mentor.. Then in the end I went home at 4plus.. SOBS.

And I've 2 tests tomorrow :( Cause I missed the top table test.. AND COMMIS CHALLENGE IS COMING! Counting down.. 2 more days before AHEM. I hope everything go well for us..

im soo tired

Tomorrow need to practice how to make crepe.. -.-"

I've decided to create a website again :) For self entertainment and maybe use for my new shop.. Since holidays are coming.. And semester 2 is going to be more relaxed than now :D

Can't sleep now.. Don't know why.. Though I'm feeling very sleepy.. ZZZZ! There's seriously something wrong with my internet browser.. Internet explorer, Safari and Firefox all have error.. -.-" Is it my computer or what? I think so. I'm so don't feel like sending it for service :(:(:( And facebook seems to have something against me these days.. The pages can't load! Can't even add stuff to it.. -.-

BORED.

Oh ya! I bought a fish turner today XD For the crepe flipping.. Haha. I'm still missing a rolling pin.. =.=

worn out

This is definitely not one of my best days.. School is tiring and wrong.. I mean things kept going wrong.. And I kept getting scolded for things that wasn't done by me.. Just my luck to be standing there when the things when wrong. Sigh..

School's out in just one more week.. Next week is commis challenge. I sure hope we can present the dishes nicely and appetising. Haha. SHould be able to right? 

We had guest lecture today on salmon.. And the following are the pictures of the food tasting..

 This is the salmon belly sushi.. 

And this is smoked salmon on potato cake!

I don't think I'll be elaborating on the taste.. Its better to try it yourself :D I'm kinda lazy today.. Very tired too.. I'm on a very healthy diet lately.. I have 3 meals per day. And I not that kind who will really eat breakfast.. But I have no choice.. Had to eat medicine after meal so.. And I try not to skip lunch.. Despite the food there that is inedible.. 30mins to hunt for food that is not salty etc is difficult.. Sigh.

Appointment with the kidney specialist is out. Now waiting for the surgery department.. I seriously hate going to the hospital.. My poor mum is sick.. Sigh.. She worried too much for me when I'm in the hospital.. 

I wanna sleep but I don't wanna sleep.. -.-" So complicated feelings.. 

:()

Me and my stupid mouth.. Yesterday I said that I would be the next person who will fall sick and it really come true.. Other things I wished will happen never come true but this? Can't believe this.. My temperature is so high -.-" So weird. 

If in the past, I wouldn't have  mind if I have to stay home instead of going to school.. But now? Are you kidding? Yeah, I know I'm sick and I shouldn't go round spreading to other people but.. Daily assessment 20marks, professionalism 10marks and not to mention that long 3hrs lectures which will cost me 30marks. Total  60marks. Oh my goodness.. This is really no joke. I can forget about my grades if I missed one.. 

My head is so pain that I can't sleep.. If not I would be enjoying my sleep now.. Sigh. I just realized I didn't see anything much today.. Breakfast as usual = NIL, lunch : one big cup of ice milo, food tasting a bit of everything.. Dinner I ate a few mouthful of the fish and veggie then I no longer have the appetite to eat. I think I going to lose weight now.. Sigh.

just like any other

And I thought I wouldn't get a chance to cry again. Sigh.

One word. Tired.

My head hurts.. Sigh..

I'm going to make a movie with sims 3! Wonder if I'm gonna be successful.. Hope I will :) Then at least I'll have something to do during the holidays if I'm not working..

untitled

Okie.. I'm not at home now so I can't really update on my so outdated school life, but then.. Last week, when I did alot of wrong things during service operation, I thought I'll flunk that entire week,however, during debrief on Friday, chef said that we all got As! Either a low A or high A. Does it matter? Not really.. Since its still A.

3 more weeks to go before commis challenge, end sems test and not to mention holidays.. Looking forward to it? Nah. I still wanna enjoy more.. Of the food actually.. Haha. But next sems we'll be having wine & beverage so its not that bad.. Let's just hope I'm not in the wrong list of ahem. If not, that whole sems at service side will = GONE.