sigh..

Recently mood very bad.. Hence didn't write much.. Grandpa stuff, mum stuff, work stuff, school stuff, relationship stuff.. Driving me insane.. Sigh. Really don't know what to say anymore..

Cherish while you can or you surely will regret.. UNLESS you don't care, then its a totally different issue altogether..

ARGH. BAD MOOD >:(

late

I just realised I haven't been blogging for quite long.. Not to mention the fact that I have long overdued posts.. Haha.

Despite the fact that I've been working very hard, I'm still broke! Mum's birthday is just a few more days.. And guess what? I promised to treat her to a good meal.. But I'm broke :( I'm still trying to refill that hole made a few months ago..

I wanted to change my hairstyle.. Cause the weather is driving me nuts. Its too hot with this hair. Changing is definitely going to cost too.. Moreover.. No way am I going to cut a hair that I can't let myself be seen with.. :(

Bought a few clothes for my makeover, since there's a 50% off for all clothes.. So my tution money = gone.

Been to the hospital for a few more times.. The doctor gave me medication for 1month. And from what he says.. Though he didn't say it out loud, there's definitely a possibility of me having cancer. Small possibility is not = NIL. If I have it, you might as well kill me now. So I have to eat this disgusting medicine for a month and see how.. Then we'll know if I'm lucky or not..

Wednesday still have to go back hospital again. :( To check on my result on the kidney. Hope I recovered. I can't go through anymore treatment.. Too painful.. If it becomes kidney failure.. Its really omg. Last wednesday, when I go back to hospital to take scanning.. I thought I don't have to go through anymore needles.. Guess what? Besides drinking that disgusting contrast water which almost made me vomit, the nurse tricked me again. The doctor told my mum that the needle will only go through my arm, that nurse pierce through my wrist. She complaint that my nerve is too narrow, so she pierce through 4 times, each time going deeper. Pain till I cry. Then she give up and go through my arm another 2 times cause she can't find the nerve. So angry with her. If you can't do it once in the first place, get someone else who can. Keep saying I'm so poor thing, and it's all cause by your incompetence. Still call yourself senior nurse. Liar.

Sick for more than 1 week now.. My flu finally recovered.. But not the cough. I seriously won't be surprised if the next time the doctor is going to tell me is that my lungs got infection by virus. =.=

I HATE GOING TO HOSPITAL. And I'm not kidding.

Day 17

Kitchen orientation plus lecture on garde manger.

Today is really a bad day. I'm in such the bad mood. I can only say my patience has exceeded its capacity and I had enough after 1 month.

Start the orientation by visiting the garde manger outlet, then the butchery, lunch, baking and pastry then the asian kitchen, lastly the top table.

Nothing much during the orientation.. Just some talks and stress from the chefs.. However, at the baking and pastry segment, we prepared some cookies. Slice the cookies from the mixture.. The dough was very hard as it was frozen. When its hard, you had to exert a lot of strength.. But when its soft, it become difficult to cut as it is sticky. We were also taught of how to turn the tray around. I tried and thought I was successful, then I burn my arm on the side of the oven.. And I dropped a cookie because of that.. Sigh.

There's this funny thing.. I tripped inside the kitchen at the same spot continously 3 times.. I think I tripped on someone boots, then I keep falling.. Can't get my balance.. So embarrassing.. I even almost fall onto the chef.. -.-"

Today is really not a good day. Start badly, end badly. So much to do, under so much pressure, so much to think. TIME IS LIMITED. VERY LIMITED.