Wonder why dream and reality are always so different.. In dreams, you always get what you want, do things exactly the way you want to.. You might have nightmares sometimes, but its not often.. Usually you dream of what you want..
But in reality, its different.. What you dream, is totally opposite of what you wanted.. And what you dream, you can never have it.. A dream will remained as a dream.. If it comes true, you're very lucky.. But most of the time, they don't..
Reality is cruel. They gave you things that you don't want to face, tell you things that you don't want to know.. And you can't reject them.. You have to face the truth and think of solutions which are hard to find sometimes.. Truth hurts..
Used to think that I've everything.. Friends that I can always depend on, family who will always be there for me, my studies are good, my health is good, my love life is great, my work is fine.. But.. That was in the past.. Things are no longer the same.. I'm tired of how things are going now.. Things don't make as much sense to me now.. I'm tired of doing things that nobody bothers.. If everybody don't care, there's isn't any point in me caring so much right? Will that make any difference? I don't know..
Tried my best but was treated like a ghost invisible to naked eye.. My health now is not as good anymore.. After that fall, I realised, my body is actually very weak.. I won't be surprised if my life span is very short.. Who cares about this? Nobody does.. Not anymore..
I should be happy.. Should be happy now.. Especially when I'm cooking.. But all I felt like just now is crap. I don't have to die from sickness, accidents.. Cause words are powerful enough to kill me..
Nobody try to know me.. In the end.. I'm still a stranger to you..
Its too late for me to give up now.. And I don't want to.. But I'm stuck.. In confusion.. I'm falling apart.. Cry out for help but no one can hear me.. Who cares? No big deal.. I'm just a stranger..
