But from the moment I stepped into the kitchen, it wasn't good at all. I cut myself while opening the cupboard, the whole piece of skin came off and bleed. 2nd time I sliced myself while cutting mangos..
Today was a very busy day.. Last day of service, so sugarloaf was extremely crowded. Kept rushing up and down to bring the food.. End of the day, practice for commis challenge.. Our group did 1 dish only.. The crepe, but we spent 3hours making it cause it keep going wrong..
I've realised today that I'm really invisible. People can't see me at all. I'm convinced that I'm nothing. I mean nothing. Definitely not anyone of any importance and can definitely do without..
People I hope will show concern to me, didn't care. People that showed me their concern, I appreciated it alot. It don't mean nothing to me.. Some people do it just a little too late.. Too late to change anything..
This time round, I'm certain that I'm not thinking too much. Right, that's all I can say. It's so obvious. It all means nothing.. Cause I'm nothing. Is this a sign for me to stop and let go? From what I see, the sign is telling me to get lost.. Telling me that I don't belong here.. The place where I thought I should be.. It was too good to be true..
After all that have been said and done, I can't be me anymore.. Anyway, that's no such thing as me in the first place.. I don't exist at all.. I'm nothing. I'm invisible..
