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All the previous posts are from last week cause I didn't have time to update! SO the last post is actually last Thursday. That's right, you didn't see wrongly.. Its last Thursday.. Haha. I'll update from last Friday to today, Friday after work today :)

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FHA 2010

Today went to work in the morning, did opening awhile.. Practically I only stayed there for at most 1 hour then I went to expo for the food and hotel asia 2010. The reason why I can go on weekday is cause there's a training at expo later on that day too but more to that later -.-" You will understand my expression later too..

So I traveled about 30mins on train.. Reach destination super excited.. Oh, I went there alone cause everyone went already.. Anyway so I reached there, I don't know what to do.. Kinda lost..

Luckily, there's a tour guide sort of, telling us where to go. So I take the shuttle bus to hall 9 to get my free admission pass ♥ Guess what the pass say? I'm the food and beverage operator! HAHA. So funny but quite cool :) Started at hall 9, its all the food and wines..

Strolled around taking some samples, as I'm still sick, I controlled what I try.. So sad. Throughout the whole event, I only take brochures, drink fruit juices and eat bread. Plus my stupid auntie come find me today as well so stomach cramp even more food can't eat. ARGH. Tell me about it -.-" People spent $80 then can get in, me get in free but I can't eat anything and can't find anything free except for brochures too. Haha. Super lucky I know -.-"

Anyway I walked around saw things that interest me like the different types of food and the quality.. Saw the machinery as well those, the equipments and stuff makes me start thinking more about what I wanna buy for my future home and cafe! Hehe am I thinking too far? HMMMMM..

Oh ya. I saw wingyan and yingying today! Went to find them in the fair and got free coffee :D So happy to see them ^^ But can't talk much cause they working.. SO SAD :( Walked around, from hall 9 to 1.. At hall 3 saw competition and lecturer, we got gold! COOL! Saw zeus and haoqing also .. Haha. But I was rushing for the training so I went off early.. Haven't see finish yet just leave..

I returned my badge. What a wrong decision. Regretted not keeping it for souvenir.. SIGH. I couldn't find my way to changi business park outlet so I took a taxi plus I'm late. What a waste of money. Extra charge cause from expo, the worse thing is I get there only to know that I already attended the training before only at another outlet. GOSH. Waste money. Returned badge can't go back in. So sad. Seriously, I'm depressed. Walked out of the park, had some difficulty getting back to the mrt station..

In the end I returned to my outlet to punch out.. Some things very sucky I don't want to mention here. But thanks to wingyan I'm happy again now. HEHE. ♥

After that I went home. I will go next year!!

after tues is wed..

Feeling slightly better.. Chef cooked another pot of herbal tea for me.. Today is the day where I had to stay late.. So they kept asking whether I'm okay anot..

Did some work.. Time passed very slowly.. Especially when there's nothing much to do..

So at times I find something to do like cleaning up.. Or I just sit down and stare at the surrounding.. Walk around.. Paced up and down.. Talk.. Daydream.. Yeah, cause there's no business..

Then I went home. Still sick but better..

tues after mon

Went to work sick. Low energy level cough non stop. Feeling dizzy and giddy..

Chefs didn't let me do too much work keep asking me to rest. Head chef cooked herbal tea 2 times for me cause he want me to recover faster and reduce the heat in my body. So nice right?

During lunch I was kinda struggling to move fast, luckily they told me to take my time.. So I'm not so stressed. After lunch hour, they made me go outside sit down and rest while they prepare lunch.. The staff meal..

Did some mise en place though I can't really remember exactly what I did.. I was very blur.. Sigh.. Went home feeling very giddy..

that monday

Only one word to describe this day : sick.

In fact I'm very sick. Went to work in the afternoon..

Woke up feeling weird. Go work weird.

Managed to cooked rice, garlic bread and stuff.. Saw a friend came from another outlet.

Can't take it anymore so had to rest..

last sunday

Reached work tasks all done by my chef already.. So nothing much to do..

Brought butternut squash, once finished lunch orders and not so busy, its time to learn more about carving..

Butternut is a little hard on the outside and soft inside, so its not very difficult to cut.. The difference of the colour on the skin and flesh can be seen very clearly too..

First my chef showed me how he cut fish.. I see take a pic.. End.

Then he teach me how to carve on the squash.. He open up for me then I continued.. Total carved 4 flowers! But cause I say wanna bring home then he cut away the not nice flowers.. Haha. Really need to improve on my skills :)

Pictures wise.. Kinda lazy to upload..

fri fri fri fri fri fri fri fri

Start at 10, today very slow don't know why.. Maybe cause I didn't have enough sleep the previous night cause I was too unhappy..

Service flow was alright.. People came to borrow things, come and go.. Finished mise en place for the day and weekend quite fast..

Lunch received bad news. Waited for nothing. Had lunch come back, still nothing much to do.. Clean up the kitchen....

Then we talked and make fun of each other.. Relaxed abit more.. Nothing much to say..

I practically emo the whole day..

At night panic and worried like crazy but I don't feel like explaining here.. Kinda pointless cause it won't help..

SOLO

I said I don't want to walk this earth if I gotta do it solo.

See girl we used to be a team
Runnin the streets (yeah)
We was living out our dream (ohh)
You used to be my rider
I was your provider
Now we separated in two
Oh we was burning up the block(yeah)
And everybody know when we step in the spot(ohh)
See, we was like the dynamic duo
Id never thought that you'd go, but you did uh, yeah you did

Oh baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)
And now you got me trapped up on this island
Where nowhere to get home

And I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)

Cuz I was so high
And now im so low
And I don't wanna walk around alone, solo
Said I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

You was the beat on to my top line,
Put us together
And you'd have to hit rewind
See, you give me a purpose
Now I'm getting nervous
That my heart will never sing again
Oh, when we was runnin up the airways,
They knew us from the Virgin Islands to the U.K.
See, we was on the way to the platinum and gold
Never thought that you'd go but you did ya, ya you did.

Oh baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)
And now you got me trapped up on this island
Where nowhere to get home

And I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)

Cuz I was so high
And now im so low
And I don't wanna walk around alone, solo
Said I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

I don't wanna walk S-O-L-O
(no no no)
I don't wanna walk S-O-L-O

"Oo uh oh,oh uh oh,
Oo uh oh oh oh uh oh,"

I don't wanna walk((S-O-L-O))

And I don't wanna go,go
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)

Cuz I was so high
And now im so low
And I don't wanna walk around alone,(Solo)
Said I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

why oh why is this happening to me?

I'm really disappointed nowadays.. Disappointed with myself.. & the fact that I'm not even as important as your _______ & your_____. Sigh. What can I say?

Maybe I shouldn't say anymore.. Just hurting myself this way.. Sigh.. I just wish this is a nightmare and I can wake up from it.. But too bad.. It just isn't.. Its cold hard reality..

Really tired and stressed.. From work and _____.

What's happening to me? What's happening to us? What will happen to us? I really don't know.. And I think its best if I don't hope anymore..

I've lost. I give up. I surrender. I just can't do it anymore.. Too tiring & you're not helping..

You only get one shot, so make it count you might never get this moment again..

The clock is ticking down, its the final round..

So tell me what is it stopping you now?

You never know, unless you try, you'll only regret sitting wondering at night..

You only get one shot so watch this moment go by.. When love's on the line..

This is really last chance.. I can't take another blow.. Don't force me to say goodbye.

training again

Start 10 reached earlier hang outside wait.

Prepare finished fast, thought of making breakfast to eat then suddenly bam, all orders non stop come in.. First take away, order this and that prepare finished, complaint. Guess what? We cut our brownie in triangle shape, she complain say brownie is not supposed to be triangle must be square/rectangular, what the hell? Isn't it the same taste? This is just a form of presentation -.-" In the end she got 2 portions of brownies for freeeeeee! Each cost 7bucks here which means 14bucks bye bye already.. -.-"

At 1, I finally have time to continue making my "breakfast".. My chefs packed into lunch box for me ^^ Haha. They say I'm going training = going school so must have lunch box.. So cute! Hehe. I got burger, fries and wings.. :P

Thought I was going to be late so I took cab down.. 3bucks.. Reached only to realise I'm the only one there.. Wasted money.. Waited for 40mins plus plus.. GOSH

Training was something we learnt in year 1, so everything can answer.. Food knowledge.. Very basic.. Had ice breaking again. Activity like cutting stuff.. Then the end.

This time round I don't have to go back after this cause my work end at 6! xP HEH. Accompanied MJ and her colleague to work.. So romantic, sharing small umbrella.. Haha. The 3 of us.. Half wet though..

Went to her outlet and explore.. Kitchen bigger but bar and dining area is smaller.. 0.0 But quite cool surrounding.. No need walk so far like mineeeeeeeee.... Anyway this is allll...

1210

Such long hours.. So bored nothing to do.. Went to work at 12pm.. Purposely took cab down to collect receipt.. Lost the previous one.. Need evidence for my not yet written letter D:

When I reached, immediately do orders.. Service etc etc etc.. Then break for awhile.. Mise en place was very fast done cause not much to do.. My chef told me to go home by mistake at 5plus.. Haha. But in the end I didn't leave..

Made Japanese potatoes, washed kitchen.........

At night doing closing with another chef.. Quite bored so keep eating.. Suddenly alot orders came in.. Then gone again.. Changed oil halfway, more orders non stop.. -.-" Become very messy cause everything everywhere as we were keeping things already plus the oil stuff..

Oh yes, I bet no one will cut their hand more retarded than me... My palm got stuck inside the tongs, don't know why.. I had trouble taking out so had to pull.. Together with my flesh & of course it bleeds.. For maybe 10mins I couldn't talk cause was too pain.. -.-"

Anyway I went home slightly later then 10 cause I stayed to help out abit more.. However, I was being told to go home cause he say he can handle.. HAHA.

tirednessssssss

Today almost late. Luckily didn't.. Setting up was alright.. Learnt how to cook rice on the stove..

Service was slow, nothing much to do.. Lunch's great! Haha. But we've been eating the same thing for like 3 days now so ... Its still nice though except for my sore throat..

Mise en place didn't do much cause others worked too fast. By the time I finished lunch only left burger patty.. Burger patty they say need use alot strength so they also don't let me do.. So end up I just did the shaping.. However today I learnt how to use a chopper to chop chicken! Haha. A sense of achievement..

Wash kitchen float here and there and its the end of the day.. Nothing special happen..

today today today today

Overslept. Though my parents tried to wake me up a few times, I can't get up. My alarm clock didn't ring -.-" By the time I get up, its already 9.15 and I'm working morning shift! Changed, get ready, 9.30..

Went to take cab. Waited for 25mins.. Confirm late already.. Text my chefs and inform them.. I got evidence to write a complaint letter now since there's huge difference..

Very slow.. They said I wasn't thinking which is true cause I'm too tired to think.. Mise en place as usual.. Nothing special..

Today I learnt how to cook rice on the stove.. Make fish & co fish & chip, yeah, thats about all.. I kept playing trying to keep myself awake.. Oh, then we washed the whole kitchen.. We got a new dishwasher, cause the old one is sick and went back to his country.. -.-

This new one can understand English better.. And he creeping me out.. He asked for my number for no reason! Scary. I told my chef about this, he said give him his number.. Haha. I don't wanna know what he'll say if he got my number.. And he asked if I'm from China.. DOTS. Kinda immune to this now but still very .........

I went home not feeling very happy.. Cause of this & that.. Ah, too complicated.. Just hope tomorrow will be a better day..

sigh..

Recently mood very bad.. Hence didn't write much.. Grandpa stuff, mum stuff, work stuff, school stuff, relationship stuff.. Driving me insane.. Sigh. Really don't know what to say anymore..

Cherish while you can or you surely will regret.. UNLESS you don't care, then its a totally different issue altogether..

ARGH. BAD MOOD >:(

final journey

My mum finally could not control herself anymore.. Just don't know how to comfort her.. Seeing her cry, make me wanna cry too..

The final ritual and we sent him off his final journey..

At the temple, one last ritual and he was gone.. Can't see him anymore.. Nor can I hear his voice anymore.. But at least.. He don't have to suffer anymore.. He can do whatever he want, sleep all the things he wanted to eat, play all the games he want.. And he'll be with his parents, and my 1st aunt.. I'm sure they will take good care of him..

After that, we went to have our lunch.. And we went back to grandma house to pack the things.. Stayed for awhile more before we went back home..

Very tired but I just can't sleep. My mum is exhausted, immediately fall asleep. Sister used computer awhile then sleep, my brother is the same.. As everyone is asleep.. I went to buy dinner.. At first they say they want chicken rice (in their sleep) then they ask why chicken rice again when they wake up -.-"

Night can't sleep again.. Only fall asleep at 1 plus.. You can guess what happened.. -.-"

You will always be in my heart..

last night....

Today everyone have to stay overnight.. Edi and his friend drove to fetch me to my grandma place.. It was raining.. Quite heavily.. As if the sky is crying for our loss of our dear grandpa..

Reached there quite early in the morning.. Sit and talk with them till about noon..

Lunch, but no appetite..

Played pranks on my second uncle.. Chat with aunt and uncles..

Wait, sit, walk, chat, eat, go upstairs, come downstairs, go in go out, sms, on the phone till my cousins came..

Lend them my phone to play.. Teach them homework.. Then go up cause phone no battery.. Charge, play, sleep.

its was 3rd day

Today almost overslept cause too tired.. Work was alright.. They let me off earlier cause they knew I'll be going to the wake.

Nothing much to do during work.. Made beef stock.. Using powder.. They said I used too much water so had to reduce longer.. Well.. I'm just doing according to the recipe.. Oh well..

So I went home to change, bathe, took the cab down.. Nothing much I can do that except entertain guests.. Keep my younger cousins occupied by playing games.. Entertain my aunt friends.. Don't know why everyone keep staring at me as if they knew me when I never seen them before..

Most of them confused with me and my sister.. They thought I'm the younger one.. So you know what my sister say? She said cause I looked more childish -.-" Whatever..

Tonight, my brother and sister staying overnight while me and dad went home.. Too tired..

just another not so ordinary day

Told my mum that I'll dropped by before work today.. But was so tired as I only managed to fall asleep around 4plus in the morning.. So I can't get up.. Plus my hands these past few days have been mysteriously becoming very pain the moment I wake up..

Anyway she called me and say I don't have to come down cause they're coming back home.. Bought lunch for me.. But I no appetite.. Only managed to finish a bit.. Then I went to work..

I took a taxi to work and I got conned. I haven't write the complaint letter yet, but I will! Just wait and see, you can't get away scott free.. Hmph. Cheat my money. Make me late.

Work was.. Alright I guess.. People are trying to cheer me up by doing things such as magic tricks.. So I paste a smile on my face as if nothing is wrong.. When I'm busy, I don't think about it.. But.. Not all the time I'm busy..

They kept asking me to rest.. At night there was really nothing to do.. Guess what we did.. Killing houseflies! Then another chef helped to change the oil and stuff.. Then he went home while I do the closing..

Went home with one of the service colleague.. We walked to the mrt station together.. At least not so lonely.. Extremely tired.. But at night, I can't sleep again and I'm working in the morning the next day!

its juz too sudden..

Went to work as usual.. Today I start at 10am.. Reached just nice, do my usual stuff.. Was quite tired so don't have much energy.. Everyone was very concern and keep asking me to rest, why I'm unhappy..

Little did I know that I'm feeling down early in the morning, there's a reason behind it.. Frankly speaking, this is written days after it happened.. So I can't really remember what I did today.. Probably about the same as every other day..

The only thing I remember is changing the timing of next day schedule to 3 to 11.. And I was unhappy mainly cause of what ET did.. Sigh..

After work, I was about to go changed, my head chef asked me if I'm free to go to the headquarter with him.. He wanted to introduce me to the higher level.. Of course I said yes. I was about to go to change when my mum called.. It was exactly 5pm..

I answered. She said, my grandfather has left. I got a shocked. She continued, that the exact timing is actually 1plus.. I asked her why she didn't tell me earlier, but she said thats because I'm working.. But... :( I told her I can't go straight cause my chef wanted to bring me to headquarter, she says its okay and I can join them after that since even if I went I can't do anything..

Hang up, changed, sit outside and wait for chef.. Although I'm not very close to him, I couldn't control my tears.. When my chef come out, he saw me crying, he asked.. At first I couldn't bring myself to say it out.. When I did, immediately he asked me to go home..

I said its okay, I have permission from my mum but he still asked me to go.. Then he told me that the rest of the week I don't have to come, he'll cover the duties for me.. I don't feel good about this so I decline the offer.. And after discussing with my mum, I feel that I should go to work as it will keep me from thinking too much.. So I told my chef I'll still come in for work the next day..

I went home to put my stuff and shower before I went to my grandmother's house.. Its just too sudden.. To the extent as if everything is fake.. Just can't believe it.. And the last time I saw him is on Chinese New Year, the only time I said to him, I think, is happy new year, I wish you good health.. :'(

My poor mum.. I know she's sad but she is keeping it in, she looks like she aged over night.. Tried to comfort her but I don't know what to do.. Sigh.. As I'll be working the next day, I went home with brother, dad.. My sister stayed over to accompany my mum..

At night I just couldn't sleep.. Maybe I'm not used to having the room all by myself.. Maybe I'm affected by this.. Maybe I'm very tired but just can't sleep.. Maybe I'm thinking too much.. Maybe I'm just having insomnia.. Maybe maybe maybe.. I just can't sleep..

forgetful me

It started since yesterday.. I kept forgetting things.. But this is worse.. I forgot that I start work at 12 not 10!!!!!!!!!!! But.. Yesterday I told them I start at 10 so they gave me the key, the key to open the outlet door!!!! GOSH.

So in the end I still went to work at 10 just in case no one is there to open the door.. However, by the time I reached, my head chef is already there and opened the door etc.. But I was there early.. -.-" Hence, I worked 2 hours earlier and went back 2 hours earlier too..

It didn't start well as quite a lot supplies didn't come in so we can't sell quite a few items and had to go round borrowing.. Head chef just came back from holiday so he's very unhappy that he had to handle such thing once he's back.. There are also things that was forgotten to order, thus supplies didn't came in and we don't know why..

Radio was not on so it was very quiet.. Chef angry, the other don't know do what, I don't dare to say things.. So the whole kitchen is silent.. Scary..

I became the "orderer" for the day.. Shouting orders and do the final touch while the 2 of them prepare the food.. Smooth but could be better if there are more items to sell.. When the rest came in, the atmosphere became better.. Head chef took out food that he bought for us on his trip.. Some are nice some I just don't know how to appreciate.. -.-"

Busy busy busy.. Finally go for lunch.. Halfway, a call from my manager.. Then I remembered I had to go to clarke quay for my assessment.. Gosh. I forgot that they changed the venue from my outlet to there.. -.-" Had to leave my lunch, inform chef, changed and dashed there..

Reached MRT, train left.. Ran to take cab. No cab.. Walked along the road, accidentally knocked onto the rear window of a car.. -.- Finally got a cab. 3bucks fare.. REACHED. No one inside! D: Walked around the whole place, then they say its at another outlet further down..

Walked in circles and circles but I just can't find where is it. After don't know how many turns, they saw me and called me then I found it.. ARGH. No sense of direction......

Assessment went on smoothly, and I was marked as competent.. Now I can attempt bar too :)

Went back to work after that.. Awhile more, its time to go home.. Though I stayed abit longer to help out..

what a way to start the first day of the week

Woke up late cause super tired.. In the end had to take taxi again.. Today I asked the uncle take a different route, it was cheaper yet somehow I feel that it is longer.. Really have to study singapore road map.. Still can't avoid that ERP today :(

I reached there 10mins before then went in to do my stuff.. The stupid fire just won't start no matter how many times I strike the matches.. In the end I just give up and wait for my chef to light it for me..

Fried eggs, heat sauce, prepare salad, check for service.. Normal stuff by now.. Vegetables late, not enough burger buns, so more items 86.. Sigh. But lesser to do at the beginning.. Today, I'm at the salad cum burger station.. So the salad, burgers etc are made by me.. New things though mostly I know how to do already.. Quite interesting.. Burnt my hands a few times in the process..

No lunch today, worked 8 hours straight.. Cause no more rice, they ate finish and they don't know how to cook. I had to cook and by the time the rice is finally ready, it was almost time for me to go home. And there's nothing else to go along with the rice D:

But my stomach is growling so I tried the pudding made on Saturday (their recipe), gosh. I don't wanna describe the taste. Its too __________ fill in the blanks. Served with brown sauce with some lamb shank.. If you wanna try, tell me. When I make for you, you'll know the fabulous taste.

I replenish the station within an hour and did everything my chef to do list if he is at my station, so I did the right things. Tomorrow as my chef suddenly take leave so I have to do opening myself, they gave me the key. I hope I won't lost it.. And tomorrow I have the bartender exam! I haven't started yet cause too busy.. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK! I wanna try bar tending too :) SO TIRED! ARGH.

JFYI

Don't ask me why I haven't sleep and post such thing cause I can't sleep FULL STOP.

Anyway.. In case anyone wanna read previous posts, click on the intro tab and select any that interest you.. Or click on the exit tab..

And I have updated my "life" and some of my wish list *hint hint* haha.

I'll be making my skin soon! When I'm free from work :)

I wish I can sleep..

SUNDAY

This week I seriously spent a lot.. :( Just got my pay and I'm broke already.. And dear birthday is just 1 more week away! OH MY GOODNESS.

Monday, not feeling well plus need to bake, took cab home. Tuesday Wednesday late took cab there. Friday cab. Saturday cab. Today I went home also cab plus I sent dear to work..

And Thursday I think, I spent 3 digit on skin products.. Jericho.. I got the sea salt, manicure set, moisturising cream, mud mask, cocoa scrub, facial scrub.. I WONDER WHAT GOT INTO ME, these ain't cheap D: But I don't regret buying that's the thing.. Now I'm becoming very self conscious, it is good or bad? If I keep using money like this, not good..

Bought a wallet, picked by &hearts, cost 30. Treat lunch at sakae 50. And my pay is only like 300? My pay already become negative :( Sadded. How to buy present! And what I planned to do is kinda....................... *screams* Why money don't grow on trees when the banks have branches? That's a really good question -.-"

Went window shopping with dear at lot 1, hang around look at clothes and stuff.. Saw my dream shoes from last month its still there! From 74 offer 53 :) So my kind of shoes.. But I'm broke already.. So he say will buy for me when he get his pay next week :D YEAH~ Haha.

Next week got assessment for my bar.. I haven't start revision yet D: Sigh. What to do? I got no mood at all.. Just plain tired.. Not feeling very well but I just can't sleep.. HELP! *bang wall*

SATURDAY

Last day of work for this week.. Before work at home, raining cats and dogs. Just 30mins before I went out, I suddenly remember my keys, so I looked for them. Empty my whole bag still can't find.. Panic. Searched and searched then look at the clock, uh oh, not enough time so I take taxi.. The driver anyhow drive wasted my money..

Reached there changed and scan just 2mins before my working time.. So luckily not late.. PHEW.

Actually when I reached not much is done.. SO its not that bad.. The dishwasher did not report to work today so there's another one to replace him.. A weird guy.. Sharpening our knives suddenly and go stir the pot -.-"

Anyway the chef who is working with me, keep going out so I did 95% of the orders by myself although I'm not very sure how to do so myself.. Gosh. Quite a mess..

At night, due to man u soccer match, a lot people came and watch the match. While they watched, they kept ordering food. First time Saturday night so busy and crowded.. I had to squeeze past them to get to the chiller and stuff..

Ben and his friends came down to support me.. As I'm the only one who is doing closing, I took quite a long time.. Feel bad for making them wait especially since I don't even know his friends :(

Oh, and I almost burnt down the kitchen while closing. -.-" The starter dropped off while I am switching it off, so the flame burst out. I got a shock of course. But due to my quick thinking, I switch off the main switch so I managed to put the switch back in safely. PHEW.

Double checked. Double checked. And doubled checked before I went home. I even asked my service colleagues to help me check.. Cause of that pizza incident, I'm really worried. But its over! My first closing :) Of course, I went home quite late.. Almost 11 then I leave.. Sigh. Tired..

FRIDAY

Today is public holiday, but I still have to work.. I don't really mind since I'm given 1 public holiday leave for me to use :)

Only today then I realised that our restaurant only open half day on public holiday.. No wonder everyone started work in the afternoon.. I start at 2pm, which is considered opening..

We have quite a lot of things to do, since most of the items are 86.. Opening, due to the fact that I slept late last night and woke up early to go to temple, I'm very tired and slow. Thus, my chef say if I do with him, will slow down everything, hence he sent me to collect stuff instead :(

In the end opening stuff and most of the mise en place he did it for me. Yet when others came, he told them I did everything.. I don't know what to say..

I only did the patty, but the orders (a few) that came in, I prepared them.. Didn't do anything special.. As there are 4 of us doing closing at night, since tomorrow I had to do closing alone, they let me try while they check..

I received a book loan to me by the ex dishwasher.. Seriously have communication error with the new one.. I text him to thank him, then he called me a few times to ask about some stuff.. The other chefs keep saying that his my boyfriend. How can it be possible? Although he's only older than me by 5 years, I already had mine. He can only be a friend :)

And I hate it when they say the Mr B is my brother. He's crazy, anyhow do things, my brother is not like that.. It's like insulting my brother.. People, are just so hard to understand sometimes..

i'll update tmr..

Not in a good mood today. Very unhappy.

If this continues, I'm going to give up.

If you don't care, that I'm not going to stay and care. Its not fair at all for me.

I've been hurt enough.

I thought you are different, it turned out that you are almost the same.

Maybe, probably, that I'm not what I think I am to you..

THURSDAY

Today woke up head very pain, feeling very giddy can't even walk straight.. Super tired.. Wonder why.. Dragged myself to work..

Reached there 5 mins before 10am, faster change and start.. Very tired, strengthless.. Wanted to cook the rice.. Guess what? The circuit tripped. I just plug in and turn the cooker on then bam short circuit. In the end the cooker can't use. My chef said it wasn't my fault cause I don't know that will happen so he cover up for me.. Feel very bad.. :(

End up we use the oven to cook the rice.. It was alright.. Then do the mise en place. As yesterday is the last day of the month, everything is running low.. Plus yesterday full house like crazy. The order never stop. Once the people get their salary they come here to eat.. Don't understand why they actually come here to eat satay.. Weird. Moreover I don't even think its nice.. Maybe cause I never tried it.. Haha.

Do the mise en place, I think I will too slow so end up my chef did most of the things for me.. Lunch hour packed again. So packed that we ran out of food to sell. D: Actually mostly is due to the fact that the suppliers came late so we don't have the products to prepare the food. Hence, I was sent to another outlet near us to borrow some stuff..

For some reason, at the area near my workplace, I have a very bad sense of direction.. Lost my way while going to work, lost my way while going to borrow some stuff from neighbour restaurant. Gosh.

Anyway, I just take the directions as told and I ran and ran though I'm already very tired.. Halfway, I asked for direction just in case. People are staring at me cause I'm wearing the chef uniform and I'm asking for my company's another outlet address. Haha. They must be thinking why is there such a weirdo wearing chef uniform running under the sun looking for her restaurant. -.-"

I managed to reach there safely.. But not for long. Tried to push open the kitchen door but in vain, thought the door is locked. So I went the other way, then the service staff say push harder. (This shows how tired I am, can't even open a stupid door) Anyway, I pushed harder and guess what? The door slam onto my hand. EXTREMELY PAINFUL. Wanted to cry on the spot but there's people around -.- Till now, to this point that I'm typing this, its still very pain. Can't bend can't use strength and it is bruised.

I borrowed the fries and ran all the way back to outlet. Took me back and fro about 10mins. I'm so fast. DOTS. Back to busy service. Heard that I need to make puttanesca, but in the end they say the order has already been sent. Wasted.

After service more goods arrived so we can really get down to do some serious mise en place. Defrost food, sliced onions, mushrooms, lemons, cut frisee, spin carrot, top up supplies etc.. Lot of work.. Only until 4 plus I went for lunch.. Anyway I chose to eat till I finished most of the things anyway..

After lunch, there's not much to do.. Items haven't defrost yet, packed stuff already, mise out what we can mise.. So I just hang around making fun of people. Haha. They have resigned already and are leaving soon, might as well make use of the time to play as much as possible.. Haha.

We cleaned the kitchen, I sweep but my chef say why I no strength one so he took over, then wash and mop. And I still can't communicate with the new dishwasher. He thought I understand malay but I don't. So I talk to him in English plus sign language.. Funny sight.

I went home, just changed bump into a colleague, talk and walk the other way.. Then I crossed the street, someone suddenly call me, I got a shock. In the end is another colleague who went to the-place-where-the-door-slam-my-hand to borrow things..

Then I went home. The rest I don't feel like saying anymore.. Maybe a good night sleep will help.. Hopefully, or else I'll be depressed the whole day tomorrow..

*SCREAMS*

WEDNESDAY

Today is probably the busiest lunch I ever had.

Opening is alright but we were interrupted by the air conditioner maintenance.. Every quite smooth and fast? I guess but I'm not very fast cause I'm very tired. Reason: read previous post :D

Back to lunch rush. We had so many orders that we ran out of alot of items... I wasn't myself today, so slow, end up requires others to help me although they are already busy enough.. Even though they say it wasn't my fault that the service is slow, I can't help it but feel that it is really my fault :(

Then I helped to prepare lunch, and was told that I can be faster :(

Before lunch, I did mise en place, topping up the items and cooked the lamb stew.. With the aid of Mr B. Didn't taste it though.. Then I went for lunch.. After lunch, nothing much to do as all the inventory are low. So I went to find something to do, sliced the bread and spread the butter. Fried nachos, marinate fish all these..

New dishwasher today, he from Malaysia. Can't understand English, so I don't know how to communicate with him. So I use sign language, haha. Use my hand to express myself.. The old dishwasher is going to become a chef in another outlet. He's from China so he can't communicate with the new one too. Old want me to ask new whether he wanna eat anot, luckily I know makan is eat. Haha. So I ask him.

So how come the dishwasher become a chef? I heard that his agency is cheating money or something, and the other outlet dishwashers are slacking not hard working enough. So the company terminate the contract. However, this guy is very hardworking and he can cook. Hence, they put him inside kitchen as a chef. Quite a nice guy..

Alright.. As I am only updating after three days, there are things I have forgotten and I am very tired. Brain no longer functioning well. And tomorrow is morning shift again. Its gonna be a very long day. All the stocks are coming in, means more things for me to do in the morning.. Gosh. My hands are in pain..

This reminds me something.. During service, I deep fried a fish fillet. It was one piece. But as I slowly put into the fryer, halfway it became two! So it dropped in and the hot oil splash onto my hand. Wanted to scream at the moment but there was so much to do, so I just endure.. That time it was red, now is purple.. Everything regardless of temperature or texture, it very painful.. :( This is the cons of working in hot kitchen..

One of the staff asked why I don't want to put make up. But in kitchen so hot put for what? Melt become worse.. If I remember anything, I'll write tomorrow or something.. ITS VERY LATE NOW and I'm simply exhausted.

TUESDAY

Opening, due to the previous night, the whole day I feel soft. Very slow very tired.. But still I think its worth it cause they say the biscuits taste good. Haha.

I tried to work fast but became slower instead.. Luckily my chefs are very kind, they never scold me or anything.. Quite understanding.. After the service, I helped to prepare the staff meal.. Curry chicken and some vegetables.. As my energy level is low, I find it hard to do things fast. End up, the chef do it himself.. Sigh.

He was surprised when I said I don't know how to use the chopper.. He wanted me to chop the chicken but I don't know how.. So again, he do it himself..

After lunch, do the normal mise en place. Supposed to do lamb stew but lamb not defrosted yet. Then tandoori chicken, chicken also still frozen. End up can't do much.. After the chicken defrost, we realised that some ingredients is 86 so I was sent to borrow from another outlet.

Everybody tell me that its at the back but I just couldn't find it. I go round and round the building, after 3 rounds or so, I found the entrance. Guess what? Its locked. -.-" Then I had to make another round to the back door and go in to borrow.. The staffs are sleeping inside..

Go back, give the ingredient, its time for me to go home.

At night, I slept at the same time, 3plus.. Cause I was doing the e-journal.. Write very long.. Not sure if its detailed enough anot.. Not very sure what is required either.. I'm seriously very tired..

Monday!

I'll upload pictures soon :)

For now, I shall update..

Monday, went for training.. Turned out to be WSQ training for bar.. So we had a really long lecture which is 6hours plus, regarding bar. Like how to set up, close, clean equipment, the cocktails recipes all these.. Some parts are quite boring even though there are activities.. Probably because we already learnt all these in school.

Only when I attended the training, then I know that there's assessment for this in order to get the certificate. And my assessment is on next tuesday! This means that I have to study on top of work.. Gosh. I'm so tired..

Anyway.. I'm supposed to work 12 to 9 but due to this training, I arrived at work close to 6.. So I didn't do much at all.. Just helping with some mise en place and preparing orders then I went home..

I stayed all the way up till like 3.30am despite the fact that I'm very tired.. Know why? I was baking. Actually I wanted to bake lime meringue tart. But the tart molds are missing. However, everything already mise out according to the tart recipe.. Hence, I used my creativity to turn it into lime curd biscuit.. Quite sour but no choice, there's supposed to be meringue on it to balance the taste but I'm very tired already..

I tried different technique to hold the curd in and balance it with the biscuits.. After about 8 tries, I finally come up with it though the product didn't come out nice enough.. Comments from colleagues are sour, but nice. Good enough, my first attempt anyway.. Haha.

Just in case you're wondering why I stayed up to bake instead of sleeping though next day is morning shift is because, many of my colleagues either resigned or transfer to other outlet.. I'll miss the people here seriously.. They are very very very good to me :)

My chef asked if I wanna transfer to Jurong outlet with him, I'm still considering.. I don't want to stay behind if everybody else are gone, but there are still one or two left which I don't bear to.. Sigh.. Tough choice..