bo-RINGGGG

So bored. What kind of holiday is this without any excitement?

Nothing to do.. Stuck at home..

Unemployed, go out spend money only:(

My dresses flyyyy away :(

SAD. Out of stocks..

Had to go out and hunt again soon..

Feel like doing something but I don't know what to do T.T

skin failed.

Went to create a skin but too big. After resizing all the lines out of shape. Wasted D:

So irritated that despite my tiredness I can't fall asleep..

Why am I waiting again for something that doesn't exist?

Tsk.

_ _ _ _ who need them?

PAIN PAIN PAIN

Stupid pot drop onto my feet now bruised and is freaking pain :( Can't stand can't walk..

Why so unlucky today?

Stomach pain also.. :(

But on the bright side, my ears finally recovered from the piercing! YEAH!

Budden my stupid giant pimple is still stuck there on my head :(

SO ARGH. Hate it. But it just won't go away :(

And more is coming out..

Then maybe I shouldn't have youth then the beans won't come find me T.T

Hope it go away soon :(

blogskins

Actually wanted to download a new skin but they don't describe my feeling right now..

Guess I'll just make one myself :/

said & done

Its raining really heavily.. As if the rain can understand what I'm feeling now..

Asking me to have a walk in the rain..

Because no one can see or hear my tears..

Today is not a good day..

But can't say its a bad day either..

Because I've done something good..

Something that I should have done long ago..

Its not good for me but good for you..

Rain.. I hope you won't stop raining..

Then I know at least you're here with me when I'm sad..

But I won't tell you the truth that's for sure..

The more I say the more you say

The more I know.. I just know..

That me, this girl, can only stay like this..

Yeah, I'll smile and laugh as if nothing is wrong cause I won't say anymore..

I won't try anymore..

Don't dare to try anymore..

Truth hurts. More than anything else..

i wonder how i wonder why

Just suddenly feel emo now..
It just comes suddenly this weird feeling..
I finally realised what I wanted and what I need..
But the sad thing is that I can never have it..
At least, not in this life..
Its within my reach but its not meant for me..
Sigh..

Things I'll never say.. Things you'll never know..
Even if my happiness is short term..
At least that period I still wanna be happy..
Too bad you don't know..
That actually my 6th sense is quite strong and I can tell..
I can tell that I'm just substitute.. Just for show..

My old problem coming back to haunt me..
Heart and kidney.. So unlucky..
Gotta take more notice now..
No appetite really don't know why..
Lucky had a great dinner today..
Cause that's the only meal I had today..
Don't feel like eating, don't know is it cause no mood?
Or something is seriously wrong with my body?
But I'm not becoming thinner so it might not be anything at all..

I know everything now crystal clear..
Can't go to anyone just myself..
Will just keep everything to myself till its all over..
Go to a place where no one can find me..
A place that is very quiet..
Peaceful.. No stress..
Just me and the sky..
The sea and sands..
Find a spot and bury it all away..
Then maybe I can try and be happy again..
Just me myself and I.. Against the world..

It has been a very tiring and stressful journey..
Full of ups and downs.. More downs than ups in fact..
Been through different situations..
Experienced different emotions..
Been loved and cherished..
But not for long..

I don't know what else to say except that I'm really tired..
I wanna have a rest.. Hopefully fall asleep and never wake up..
But that is very unlikely to happen..
I just.. Wanna find a place to hide..
Somewhere where I can cry in peace..
Till I'll never need to do that again..
I'm not strong, but I will learn to..
All these things that I went through changed me..
For good or bad I not sure..
All I know is I am now different..
And I'm going to run away..
Lucky now is holiday, no school to prevent me from running..

Maybe I'll reply messages maybe I will answer calls
The possibilities are quite low though,,
But don't worry cause when I'm back
These things wont hurt me again

Here's a song from final fantasy 8, eyes on me
Don't why this song just pop out in my head as I was typing this..

I never sang my songs

On a stage, on my own

I never said my words

Wishing they would be heard

I saw you smiling at me

Was it real? Or just my fantasy?

You'll always be there in the corner

Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you

Same old song just once more

My last night here with you

Maybe yes, maybe no

I kinda like it your way

How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Did you ever know?

That I had mine on you

Darling so there you are

With that look on your face

As if you never hurt

As if you never down

Shall I be the one for you?

Who pinches you softly, but sure

If frown is shown then

I will know that you're no dreamer

So let me come to you

Close as I wanna be

Close enough for me

To feel your heart beating fast

And stay there as whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me

Did you ever know?

That I had mine on you

Darling so share with me

Your love if you have enough

Your tears if you're holding back

Or pain if that's what it is

How can I let you know?

I'm more than the dress and the voice

Just reach me out then

You will know that you're not dreaming

its the puzzle of my heart

Songs that describes how I feel.. Just too perfectly..

Taylor Swift - Mine

You made a rebel out of a careless man careful daughter..
You are the best thing that ever been mine :)
Braced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's all I ever know
You took me by surprise
You said, I'll never leave you alone...

3OH!3 - Double vision

I'm thinking maybe I can't have any relationship

Cause lately they're not making any sense

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are

If perfect what you're searching for then just stay the same

Its so its so sad she don't see what I see

Because you are amazing just the way you are

Rob Thomas - Mocking bird

Maybe you and me got lost somewhere

We can't move or we can't stay here

Well, maybe we just had enough

Well, maybe we just ain't meant for this love

You and me tried everything

I don't wanna love you now

If you'll just leave someday

I don't wanna turn around

If you'll just walk away

A rocket to the moon - Just the way you are

Can you promise me that this is right?

Don't throw it all away

Can you do all these things?

Will you do all these things?

Like we used to

Michelle Branch - Getaway

Want to run want to chase the sun

Let it wash the world away

I want to getaway gotta getaway

Cause I need a change, yeah I need a change

Take a ride to the other side

Give me where I can breathe

Switchfoot - Your love is a song

Your love is my remedy

Hedley - Perfect

I'm not perfect but I keep trying

Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality

Joe Brooks - Superman

Cause I'm no superman

I hope you like me as I am

too awesome :D

Pictures are very hard to upload to the order I want so I decided not to post any at all.. :D For my own convenience.. Anyway the pictures are at my facebook so if interested just go there and press :)

Continue from previous posts.. IT show actually quite fun, can consider working there again if I can still remember what are those things? Haha. Learnt alot of things which I don't really think will be of much help to me now, but still I learnt new things so its great :) Can't wait for school to start.. :/

I think I officially blew my hotel gym job.. Sigh.. So I'm unemployed till F1 starts.. Gotta find something to do soon! Still have more trainings~

Just went for a dinner with ping! At the french stall. Its simply awesome! Reasonable price, good service, awesome food! Plus its near my house~! Wheeeeee! Had a three course meal plus a glass of riesling shared with ping~ Am definitely going back again :)

RECENTLY....

Updates updates..

1. Dentist trip. Cause: stupid coke. There's no way am I going to drink coke again. NEVER EVER.

2. Rlitz Carlton job: Most probably due to my IT show and F1, they decided not to hire.. Not sure still waiting..

3. F1 training still haven't call yet.. Late like the hotel~ thus date: unsure

4. IT show job. First time doing.. Seriously I have no idea at all what are those things and what they're used for until I go and work as this. Quite cool actually just that I have to know a whole chunk of stuff that I seriously have no clues about :( But not so bad since I have my team to help me with the things that I don't know (which is really alot).. HAHA. But after selling more, those common ones I can explain already..

I'll go into details soon.. Now I need to sleep.. Its the last day of the show~~ And I'm going to earn lots and lots of money.. So tired..

real updates kay ^^

HAHA. So here's the real thing..

After intern I had been quite busy.. Work at singfest and part time for my company. Some unbearable and unreasonable and unfair things happened to my salary thus, I decided not to work for them anymore and hunt for new jobs. What for work so hard and your pay got problem? People beg you to work, work ridiculous long hours. Imagine 41hours in 3 days. How many hours did we sleep? Not to mention the fact that we had to wake up early to travel to the other end of Singapore. How nice. And this is what we get in return. Unfair treatment. A few hundred dollars different. How to laugh at it? Just say that its miscalculations and we the foolish trio who trusted you, had to suffer. And others just simply take and go. Who will accept this? Who can accept this? Our hard work, our tiredness, all these people who worked with us can see. YOU. Who pushed every single responsibilities to me, a part timer while you sit down there and claim that your computer hang. You begged us to help, yes, you did. And this is what you did. Amazing. And the worst part is, you asked me to keep this to myself. Oh, why should I do that? After all the things you have done? Really? You really think I'm so easy to be bullied? You just wait and see. This is no joke. You deserved to be punished. Don't even dream that I will ever help you again. This is my first time, its also my last time. With your working attitude, I'm surprised that you can even get this position that you are in. Simply brilliant. Continue like this, I can assure you that you will lose a lot of diligent workers under you. I'll be very happy for them to be able to escape your rubbish treatment.

Above is one of the reason why I didn't update cause I'm very irritated, frustrated, pissed, angry, annoyed, disappointed with the above situation that the mastermind. It's very clear already. So don't ask, cause I'm mad just by thinking about it. Thank you.

Next, after all the nonsense, I sort of resigned and left. Went for F1 interview and training, got the job. Someone from the F1 interview asked me to work for IT show. Hence, got another job. My friend also get me a interview at rlitz carlton.

Went for IT show training and rlitz carlton interview. Training was horrible. Had to memorise whole tons of things that I don't even know what the heck are they. Not to mention the fact that I don't even know how those things work and etc. The worst thing is I had to sell them in order to get my commission. Otherwise I can only stick to my miserable basic pay of 5 bucks. =__= Who say work is easy? If I don't have commission means I work 40hours for 200 only seems very little to me :( Had to memorise by THURSDAY. OH MY GOD.

The interview at rlitz carlton went fairly well.. Interested to hire me and friend, however the supervisor was kinda shocked to know that there are days when we can't work. Like the IT show days and F1 days and training and etc.. AND I REGRET ACCEPTING THE IT SHOW JOB. STUPID ME. :( Went for a tour around the facilities then went for me tea at subway.

Ate 4 meals today! 1st meal was at the koufu food court. I ordered hokkien prawn noodles which cost $4 but the uncle give me discount and I got a giant plate at $3! Obviously I can't finish all D: But it's great! Second meal was the subway cold cut trio... Third was mum's green bean rice~ Last is my satay supper!

I'm such a good service provider. I walk to buy the satay. I pay for it. They eat. I eat. I clear the mess -___- Such a good service provider right? TSK. Oh well, at least its one of the rare times now when the whole family get to enjoy something together. It's worth it :)

Lastly, I'm going to see a dentist tomorrow.. My small little tiny teeth don't know why there's something wrong :( Had to see dentist soon before something major happen. GOSH. Don't even wanna imagine me teethless at this age. :(

Alright Miss L. Hope this long long update full of complaints can satisfy your curiosity.

Oh, by the way.. I got new ear rings and a bracelet that can actually fit my so thin and tiny wrist! I'm so happy! My shopping buddy found them for me :) heh. I'm still hunting for a new hat & shirts. Had a wardrobe full of clothes but when I wanna go out, really, there's nothing to wear :( I need shirts! More formal kinds :/ It's time to get back to the BLOGSHOP :D

Maybe tomorrow.. Just maybe.. Don't get your hopes too high up.. I might add some amazing songs that I'm addicted to now :) (& I really wish I have time to make a new skin:/)

dotsdotsdotsdotsdots! DOTS! :D

This is for the MISS L who seems to be very interested in my thoughts. ZZZZ

The title states everything.

DOTSDOTSDOTSDOTSDOTSDOTS :DDDD

Know why?

Oh my gosh..

You sure you wanna know why?

Hmmm Miss L?

Let me think of a nice and simple way to tell you...

How about....

I'm just bored and don't know what to say yet. And this post is just to satisfy your curiousity about my dots and more dots? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA~

Go study! You and my sister the same. Both not studying when you should.. TSK.

Come back later when you take a break. I got no kit kat for you though.. I need one too! That's why I tell you to buy XDD