Although I can't feel the stress, but I know I'm really stressed up these few days.. And I'm getting more and more paraniod each day.. Wonder what's wrong with me.. Now my only way to relief stress is food and cooking. I think sooner or later I'll become a ball even though I'm not that kind who will get fat easily.. But who cares? I need some more meat anyway..
I was so depressed lately that today I finally gave in and bought this (see above).. Actually yesterday wanted to buy but the machine refused to gimme my money.. Then I have to contact the customer service to get my money back.. On monday.. =.= I don't like the taste if there's even a taste at all.. Maybe I added too much ice.. Sigh..
Today's work, I can't believe I actually end and leave work the time I was supposed to leave. First time since don't know how long? Seriously need a better pay job..
After a few days of thinking, I think I shouldn't care so much.. Sure, they're important but if I won't hurt so much that caring less might be a wise choice.. I'm soo tired.. I really hope I never make a wrong choice that day.. I don't want to regret.. Don't make me feel that..
Now there's this one song which kind of describes my feeling..
Leave out all the rest - Linkin' park
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
ForgettingAll the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
Counting down the days till my time's up..
