movie marathon

I'm still a little lazy to upload all those photos on the buffet.. Hehe. I haven't received some of them too.. :(

Last Saturday, I watched angels & demons.. Just like what everybody said, the movie was great :) Wednesday, I watched terminator.. The story was okay.. Today, I watched ghost of the girlfriends' past.. Worth spending money to watch.. I'm not telling you the story or its not fun to watch it anymore.. Anyway, its quite touching.. Tomorrow, I'm going to watch blood, the last vampire.. Saturday, I going to watch another show? Haha. All the movies available, I'm watching or I've watched. What a movie week! Next Monday, I'm watching the night at the museum 2. Haha. Can become movie critic now.. :P

Its my day just 2 days later.. Looking forward to it.. Sort of.. Going for my grandma death anniversary.. It had been 6 years since she passed away.. I felt guilty.. I can't help but have this feeling that I am responsible for her death.. I remember that day was my birthday when I visited her.. It was Friday the 13th. I massaged her shoulder, played with her and talk to her.. She had a tumour in her brain which caused her to forget things easily.. But she didn't forget me.. Her darling, that's what she used to call me..

The next day she was rushed to the hospital because she choked on something.. Then she's in coma.. We weren't allowed to go into the hospital due to the sars outbreak.. It's only 6 days later when I was allowed to visit her.. On 19th June.. She's still in coma when I talk to her and held her hands.. I see tears flowing out so I knew she heard what I say.. I told her I'll visit her again tomorrow.. That very night, she left..

One of the things that I regretted is I didn't tell her how much I loved her.. Its kind of coincidental that things happened to her just after I visited her.. If I didn't visit her on that Friday and bring unluckiness to her, will she live longer? If I've asked her to wait for my visit again tomorrow and tell her I love her, can I still see her the next day? But if I didn't visit her, and she left, I don't even get the chance to speak to her..

That day, I lost someone of great importance to me.. Someone who love me for me.. Someone who really understands me and is proud of who I am.. She was my hero, saving me when I was young.. She took great care of me, giving me everything that I wanted.. If only I can see her once again, hear her voice.. Hear her calling my name.. If only there's a time machine.. I'll give anything to tell her how much she means to me and I love her very much.. If only I could.. I really miss her alot.. :(

You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and father
Then my world was shattered...
Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed
If I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here
Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never will
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
All that you dreamed I would.
Passing bells and sculpted angels
Cold and monumentle
Seem for you the wrong compainons
You were warm and gentle...
Too many yearsFighting back tears
Why can't the past just die...
Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive
Teach me to live
Give me the strength to try
No more memories
No more silent tears
No more gazing across the
Wasted years
Help me say
Goodbye
Help me say
Goodbye...

Cherish all the people you cared and loved.. Don't be afraid to let them know how much they meant to you.. Don't regret like me when it's too late to do anything.. There's no time machine.. Life is unpredictable.. You never know what will happen next.. Forgive and forget.. Bearing grudges only makes you and others lives harder..

To all the people who have made a difference in my life, I really appreciates what you've done for me. Thank you.. To my family and friends, without you, I won't be me anymore.. Life won't be the same without anyone of you..

Gosh. Now I felt like I'm saying my last words.. Growing older means being more matured.. Life span is shorten by one year.. Minus one year to spend with people that I love.. Sigh.. In conclusion, life is really short.. Cherish people around you while you still can..